So since this last hospital stay was bogus, I am on 15 mg of haldol. I am having side effects from it with akathesia and fatigue. My psychiatrist upped my strattera to 80 mg to combat my comprehension skills with reading and memory. She says I'm doing better, but for some reason...I just do not buy that. I don't feel any better than when I went in the hospital. I am still having severe swelling of my limbs, constant fatigue/dizziness/pain in my left leg and hip, still jittery and feel like I am uncomfortable in my own skin because I may be having either a panic attack or psychotic break at nights. It has gotten better since my b12 shot, but it is still bothersome. I now have neuropathy from whateverthehell is going on in my body. My c reactive protein is 23 now, which means I have a lot of inflammation in my body. Do not worry, I am going to my GP on Tuesday for more tests and my regular 3 month check up. I hope she can at least prescribe prescription strength vitamin d to me as mine is very low.
That is not exactly what this post is about. I have been looking at colleges again and it is looking more like we should move to Memphis before Colorado. I have restarted the process of admission to the Memphis College of Art and have started one for Clayton for the University of Memphis. We are both doing really well in our classes online. We both have a 4.0 this semester and midterms are coming up in the next three weeks. I have even looked into buying a house, but with him not having credit during his incarceration, we cannot buy one until I get him some credit started, pay off my car, and get my student loans in deferment for over a year from the first payment date. There is even a class to pay for the downpayment and closing costs of the loan. Tennessee Housing Development Authority is pretty on the ball about getting people into houses. I meet all the other criteria, but being on disability, I just do not seem to make enough for it by myself. Plans change. I am still doing fine arts, and nothing is going to hold me back. I may have to continue having to go part time, but I can do this. I cannot wait to go to an art school. Hopefully with my updated portfolio, which I will post sometime soon, I can get a better scholarship. Also, with vocational rehabilitation, I have to go full time to get benefits with books, supplies, and tuition. MCA seems to be the perfect fit for what I want to do and we should be able to move by the summer because Clayton will be off of probation, hopefully by then. A lot of things suck, but my love for him never waivers. We will be able to figure out some more of the details by March, since he should be approved by then.
Here's to prayers and good wishes.
agape,
Whitney
